need

and then when you need people, they say "all always be there for you" or " I'm right here for you if you need to talk".. but it kind of fucks it all up that their next sentence is "but I have to go, see ya later" fucking shit.. can't they hear the pain in my voice? Or is it just because they don't give a shit??
To busy fucking their boyfriends or girlfriends to pay attention to my scream for help..
If I die, I hope they come to think about how their actions pushed my off the edge..
And now this baptition tomorrow for my cousin.. I have to dress up nicely so that my parents will look good..then I have to sit for like 10 hours pretending that I give a shit about this kid being dipped in water by some guy in a dress who live by a lie of jesus christ my ass..
I have to suck up to the family I don't know, so that everybody will tell my parents what a couple of nice daughters they have.. I fucking hate it..
but I'll go now, before I smash my laptop..
peace out